"The Culkin"

I finally have a recipe for my Signature Sandwich.

Chicken Cutlet
Melted Provolone Cheese
Buffalo Wing sauce

All on a hero.

Try is people, it DOES NOT disappoint.

A new direction

Yah know, creatively I think I was confused.

I didn't know the path I wanted my music to go. I was struggling between my new found love of Electronica, and my roots in Rock n Roll.

Basically what I'm currently writing can pretty much be summed up as good old fashion Power Pop. Yup, with the synths too. I'm loving it, and having so much fun with it.

I haven't abandoned electronica yet. Once I get some better samples I'll get back on it, and start producing that "phat beats."

Anywho, new clips will be up on the Myspace soon, till then, PEACE.

BADASS DREAM!!!

Okay, last night, I had hands down, the most BADASS dream ever. OMG. It made me literally wake up, and be like "FUC YEAH!!"

The dream starts off with me with a friend of mine at a coffee shop in Berkeley. I'm chilling out, and I notice someone who looks VERY suspicious. So I follow him back to his place, and he goes into a gated apartment complex. Of course I can't go in.

So I go to a blue panel that shows a map of the area, and people in the area represented by orange dots. Then these TWO HUGE ORANGE DOTS appear on the screen. I know immediately these are monsters.

So I go to the top of a building, and this AWESOME metallic armor comes onto me. I then kill the Spider-like Monsters using lasers and rockets.

THAT is the definition of badass.

Mr. Culkin talks Washington,

Boy oh Boy. The Political Climate here is a lot different then it is in Long Island. People are definitely alittle more extreme here, actually a lot more extreme.

As many of you know, in Berkeley, there was a huge protest against a Marine recruitment centre. Now I respect people's views. If people are against the war, thats fine, heck, I'm against the war. But protesting the marines? calling them liars and intruders? Whoa whoa, I'm not on that bandwagon. Theres a fine line between being against the war, and bashing the troops, but I think it was eventual that the liberal elite would show their true colors. I knew a lot of them were lying when they talked about "supporting the troops."

The Men and Women in uniform defend your rights, and put their lives on the line, so you can "protest them." Sometimes I feel we're truly the most spoiled brats in the world. The difference between the Greatest Generation, and everything after that, is that the Greatest Generation appreciated what they had, and appreciated what people were willing to do for them.

And now onto the Presidency. Wholy horrible crop of candidates. Okay, Hilary Clinton is well...a Clinton, Obama is charismatic and seems sincere, but way too liberal and I think pretty naive and in terms of foreign policy, Mike Huckabee seems like a nice dude, but is an Evanglical Christian, and I think the Republican party has had enough of that corrupt crap, and John McCain is VERY old.

When I look at Hilary, I look at someone who used my home state of New York, as a launching point for her political career. Being First Lady doesn't mean you have "the experience" to become President, which I think is overrated anyways. I think she's very corrupt, serves special interested and will put us in a huge mess.

Obama seems like a good guy. Seems like he's sincere in his message, sincerely wants to bring about change, but boy oh boy, he's gonna make the deficit worse. He wants to do stuff that involves taxing the crap out of us, and making us basically into the United Communist States of America. Again, I like him as a person, but his views are just very scary to me.

I think Mike Huckabee seems like a nice dude. I think he'd be fun to hang out with, talk Chuck Norris jokes, etc, etc. But man oh man, he's tragically religious. I'm a constitutionalist and a Catholic, but I don't want the constitution changed to fit the Bibles word, and I don't believe the founding fathers would love that either. Some of them were men of faith, but not all of them, and they wouldn't want their document altered. America to me has always been faith based, yet tolerant, but thanks to Neo Conservativism, this has really gone astray, and we're mixing politics and religion. Even Jesus thought this was an awful idea.

I LOVE Ron Paul. Best candidate. Wants to eliminate socialist programs in America, get us out of corrupt international organizations like the UN, as well as end the war, and STICK TO THE CONSTITUTION. True Conservativism and REAL CHANGE FTW!!! Unfortunately, he stands a snowballs chance in hell of being President. Next.

John McCain. He's a true hero to me. His service to our country, and what he endured under capture from Vietnam is a story of heroism, bravery, honor and sacrifice. But boy oh boy, he's old. He's 71. We'd actually have to worry about who his Vice Presidential choice would be. Also, don't believe the absolutely retarded people who think he'd be "George Dubya the Second." Anyone who says that knows absolutely NOTHING about the man and his politics and looses all crediblity. Neo Conservatives CRINGE at the thought of McCain being President, citing he's "too liberal." The man is as moderate as it gets.

I'm probably going to Vote for McCain, or do a write in as a protest, most likely writing in like, Big Bird or something. Boy if I could get enough people to do that, we'd definitely be screwed.

So its basically a battle between a Femminist, an extreme Socialist, a Baptist Minister and a Moderate Conservative War Hero. Doesn't this sound like the beginning of a joke you tell at a bar?

New Year brings New Direction.

Hey everybody, sorry I haven't posted in awhile.

Anyways, I've been UBER busy. I've been working on a website that looks pretty killer, I've been writing a lot of new music, and I've basically just been growing up and maturing as an adult.

New Years Eve was funny for me. It was the night I finally let someone go. It was the right thing to do, and I have no regrets.

No one should ever be treated like a second class citizen. Its not okay to bash people in a malicious manor, especially someone who has damn near given up his life for you.

I was in this person in the trenches for 6 months. I would've done anything for her. But I started to get treated unfairly. I was cheated on twice, and I forgave both times. I got pushed aside when she met someone else (I'm 3,000 miles away, I was fine with us moving on, but I was treated like garbage), but I forgave. I got lied to, with the lie nearly destroying me emotionally. But I forgave. This person even tried to take my life, and I forgave her. Then we got into a fight at a resturant, that was instigated by her, and I just had it. I couldn't trust her anymore. She let random people fill her head up with garbage, and spewed it onto me.

I realized I've become something I'm not. I had a temper I've never had before. I wasn't as truth worthy. I wasn't the person I wanted to be. I'd essentially become a crazy man. lol.

Later that night, she offered something she made for me. That was a cross roads for me. It was either go back, repeat history, and eventually get hurt again, or get caught up in some really horrible drama, or I could move on. I chose to move on.

I always tried to be a Knight in Shining Armor. But in reality, I'm not that. I'm John Culkin, just an ordinary guy trying to do the right thing in the world. I had given up everything, I even almost gave up becoming a composer for this person, that just completely abused me mentally, and made me feel like less of a person. I was never happy. In the words of Shawn Micheals "I lost my smile."

But I'm regaining it again. I'm starting to really enjoy living here in California. I'm meeting really good friends, and still keep in touch with the people that meant the most to me back home in New York.

The Game Developer Conference is in two weeks, and I'm REALLY excited for it. I get to see a few buddies of mine I haven't seen in awhile, and I get to meet new ones as well. I'm finally starting to immerse myself in the experience of living in California.

I'm starting to look for a small part time job to make some money for new gear, and I'm eating a lot better and trying to stay active so I can lose weight. I finally get to redefine myself. I feel mentally, physically, socially and spiritually more happy then I think I've ever been. I'm starting to live my dream, and I'm not looking back, and I have no regrets.

I'm not a greedy person, but I do have a dream of moving back to Long Island, buying a beautiful house, and building a beautiful studio in it, and now I'm starting to feel like its going to be a reality.

My new thing it to take up a new hobby here. My friend Mike keeps pushing me to try out Surfing, and I think once I lose enough weight, I'll probably take it up. It seems like so much fun, but we'll see.

But all I can say is, I've never felt more at peace. Sometimes, if someone you care about is being negative, and putting you down, you have to let them go. Words sometimes aren't enough. Action is everything.